self esteem

So having a baby and trying to be yourself and find yourself again is hard. Being the perfect mom and wife non existant . Ive been learning how to love myself again and even trying to find a ground on who the hell i am at this point. I know i dont have my shit together but i dont think any 23 year old does . What really doesnt make sense is when we are feeling these lows and going through these changes how it is that the parasites and ugly souless people always find you and know . To try and bring another woman down just because this person has daddy issues and my husband wouldnt give her the attention or time of day or stay working with the family that almost destroyed his own YOU had to get jellous of me and what i have and try to bring me down but i know your still young and have a lot of growing up to do and thats why i turn the other cheek and go on about my buisness . Plus i know you have a drug and drinking problem and i feel bad for you and pray youll eventually seek help. Anhow this family im speaking of preys on people they can use and they use them until there is almost nothing left if you go against there wishes and dont live by the 1800s then they do anything to make your life hell . Trust me i lived it for almost close to 10 years dealing with these people and i feel so sorry for the blinded that step foot into that aura . Its disgusting they all sleep with each other they do ever drug known even the children . On top of all the illegal activity they have going on behind the scenes they play off as they are good people family people but anyone who abuses and uses the way they do dont know the first thing about love or a family it really all boils down to the facts that just because someone sees you arent good for them anymore and they cut you off doesnt mean you have to be an even shittier person than you was already.  I just think you should be kind and if your mama didnt teach you any better which i know she didnt ill tell you the golden rule if you aint got nothin nice to say dont say it at all and if you do make sure you can back it up because not everyone is scared of you and not everyone is as kind as i am to turn the other way . 

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